Now that I am (I'm almost afraid of jinxing myself here) feeling better, I thought I would share some of my lower moments with you. I wrote these in a notebook when I couldn't even get up and make it to the computer. For some reason, sitting at the computer just made me feel worse. There are 2 entries I wrote this way, and I will put both of them in this post with the date of each at the top. Can you say pity party? LOL.
11-20-06
I am crying in desperation for this just to GO AWAY. Not the pregnancy, but the sickness. I really think I had myself convinced that my first was just that. My body didn't know what was happening, right? But this time it would know what to expect and it wouldn't be so bad. Not so. I am every bit as miserable as I was last time, only this time I'm trying to be Mommy to a 2 year old. I know I'm not the only person to ever go through this. So I have to wonder... how do they do it?? I couldn't keep anything down this weekend. My doctor(s) put me on Zofran, which has managed to keep my food and water down, what little I can manage to take in anyway, but I am just as miserable feeling. So I can barely find the strength to stand for more than a minute at a time. Ugh. I hate feeling like such a whiny baby! I have always thought of myself as a fairly strong person when it came to dealing with pain, sickness, etc. But this is just over the top for me. I remember with Madison, people would say "Oh, you think it's bad now, wait until labor!" Well my response to that now would be that I would take 3 labors over this! #1: Labor lasted 21 hours, not 14 weeks! #2: When labor got beyond what I felt like I could reasonable handle, that epidural was there within minutes and was sweet relief. :)
12-4-06
I do have good days. I just only seem to pick up this notebook when I feel like crap. Hehe. I really want to feel better, so I will write about some good things from the past few weeks. Let's see. I really pushed myself the day after Thanksgiving and went shopping. I got some presents for Maddie. She was with me though, and didn't understand where the toys were when we got home. I can picture her face on Christmas morning when the reappear. Hehe. After that and the driving I had done on Thursday, though, Saturday was miserable! I think I just pushed myself too far. We were supposed to go to Madison on Saturday, but there was just no way I was leaving the house. I did feel a little better Sunday and we went to see the lights in Indy. That was fun. Madison really liked all the lights and of course the horses. We were supposed to have our ultrasound to confirm the due date that following Wednesday but the u/s tech had to cancel all of her appointments due to a death in the family. It has been rescheduled for this Friday the 8th. I do look forward to seeing this little bugger that is making me so sick! Last week Madison and I went to the Fashion Mall. I really wanted some of those Preggie Pop Drops for morning sickness and since they closed the Motherhood store at Castleton Square, we had to go to Mimi Maternity at the Fashion Mall. They are pretty good. Not a miracle cure, but cheaper than Zofran (which I am still taking too). I'm hoping to lessen the amount of Zofran I take, though, by supplementing with these. There was this toy store called Kids Corner next to Mimi that Madison just loved. She would have played there all day if I had let her! Of course I didn't and she whined a bit about that. You know, she has a baby in her belly too. So she says anyway. It's cute. She and Daddy will give kisses to my belly and then she will lift up her shirt so we can kiss her baby too. Hehe. Hmm. She is eating a dinner roll right now and opening her mouth to look at the half chewed bread in the mirror. Lovely.
Wasn't I just a peach? LOL
Kimberly |
